That is so cool! :nana:
Jaycee, thank you for sharing your thoughts & feelings today. If I were to guess, I'd say that a lot of other fans have felt similarly to you at different points over the past 5-6 years. Everyone has their own filters and experiences, as bottle pointed out, that create their own version of Clay Aiken in their minds. Then something is said or done that doesn't fit that version and people have to readjust.
To say he's been through a lot since AI2 is an understatement and, of course, he's going to have changed in some ways, but I think the essence of Clay is still exactly the same.